Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Blog Disclaimer

This blog represents the official voice in my head. It is intended for your entertainment purpose only and my personal release of all the shit in my head. The comments and opinions expressed on this blog are my own and not of my employer's, family members, friends, or even ex-husbands. This blog is unsuitable for overly sensitive persons with low self-esteem, no sense of humor, or irrational religious beliefs. If you are unable to read this blog without feeling offended, hurt, or humiliated, it is recommended not to read this blog. This blog is intended solely for the readers and to whom they are addressed. If you are reading this blog in error, please exit now. Any review, distribution or copying of this blog is not authorized (either explicitly or implicitly) and constitutes an irritating social faux pas. I do not assume any legal liability or responsibility for the accuracy, completeness, or opinions of this blog, nor for the mental or emotional affects caused by this blog.

This disclaimer is now located at the bottom of my blog page.

Before I go, let me leave you with this:
This is my 200th blog. Who knew one person can have so much to write about. I hope all my readers out there are enjoying my blogs...for entertainment only!

Also, I want to announce that my blog will be moving to:

Thursday, February 12, 2009

My Pity Party

Enter My Pity Party:

Life is unfair.
Life is just unfair.
There are so many injustices and imbalances in this world.
Ignorance is bliss! Ah….if only…to be ignorant!

Is it fair when the self-absorbed, apathetic, egotistical bastards can fall in a pile of shit and come out smelling like roses?

Or is it really as it seems?
It can’t be.
It just can’t be.

Why do good-hearted, hard working, caring, giving, and honest people (such as myself), have to always fight upstream?

Why does my ex-husband get to buy a 5 bedroom house with a pool with his other family? What did I ever do to deserve this lopsided balance between us? Why does he get the life that rolls so easy? While I’m stuck in an upside down house, I struggle, I bust my ass…and HE…he gets everything he doesn’t deserve. Who am I to judge or to play god…but really? Seriously?! Who did I piss off? What did I do?

Exiting My Pity Party:

What may appear to be lopsided on the outside is really just a disguise, a facade…because we all know it’s what’s inside that really counts. And my insides are awesome!

Through it all, my main solace is my faith. I have faith that things will always come around. I have faith that what you give comes back in return. I have faith that love is all you need and all you need is love. While this world is unfair and cruel at times, I believe we live in a world where there is a balance. I have faith. Maybe during my pity party, I would have called that stupid naïveté.

In an unfair world (yes, it is unfair even outside the pity party) the people who survive are those that can see the beauty around it all. Life is to be appreciated and respected even with all its impurities and defects. You see…because for every flaw, injustice, malicious act, inexplicable event, misunderstood circumstance, or misfortunate, there are thousands more immeasurable moments of beauty, happiness, wonder, grace and love. Those that can appreciate this have great insides…I mean insight to life! You can choose to see the wonderful world around you or dwell in your disasters.

In the big picture, it’s just a house, it doesn’t change anything. I have more than that…so much more! I am truly blessed and I love my life!

Before I go, let me leave you with this:
Tonight, Mathew is with his dad and Harley is with my brother.
My house is quiet!
My house is a little too quiet!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Pots & Pans

My pots & pans are not dishwasher safe. Hand wash only!

I tell myself that I will wash them right after each use. It's easier that way, right? Somehow I never seem to make it to cleaning after each use...rather way after when the crusts form. Or I'll wash them when I need that specific pot again. And every time I find myself cleaning a crusty pot, I tell myself just take an extra five minutes to wash them right away. Why I can't I manage to do that? Why do I wait until all my pots and pans are dirty to clean them all? I get so annoyed and yet I can't seem to un-annoy myself. And the irony of it all is that my kitchen is the cleanest room in my house (except for the occasional dirty pot in the sink, of course)!

Just an observation.
Oh well...c'est la vie!

Before I go, let me leave you with this:
Valentine's weekend will be spent with 'my person' in Palm Coast, FL. Carrie, I love you, man! "I don't know if I'd survive without a friend like you in my life"

Sunday, February 8, 2009


Did you know that a treadmill can be used for a many things other than running, walking, and jogging? I discovered the 'other' uses from previous treadmill owners.

My treadmill will not be used as a seat, trash receptacle, or a clothes hamper. It will not collect dust and it will not be forgotten. My treadmill will be my new gym. As a single mom, it is difficult to get to the gym on a regular schedule, if at all. I have a small window of opportunity to go; basically when my son is in school (school is open between 7:30am - 5:30pm).

The main problem with my current gym routine is I'm rushing...always rushing!

If I go during lunch hour, I'm rushing, checking the time every five minutes, and need to take a shower.

If I go in the morning, I'm rushing to get out of the house, rushing in the gym to get to work, checking the time every five minutes, and will need too work at home to make up for lost time.

If I skip out of work early, I'm rushing, checking the time every five minutes, will need to work at home to make up for lost time, will need to shower at home, which will result in less quality time with Mathew and result in leaving him unattended (again)..and that's just risky and scary.

Do you see my dilemma? I don't go to the gym to lose weight or fulfill some diet plan. I go for me, for my psyche. It's SO needed! And when I go to the gym under the above conditions, it just doesn't help the psyche very much. You could even say it hinders my psyche even more. Instead of my mind running wild (clearing the psyche), it is being rushed, thinking of time, and not feeling at ease at all.

The rantings in my head while at the gym: Okay, I can actually squeeze in 30 minutes of running, 10 minutes stretching with a quick shower. Ten minutes pass. Do I really have time for all of that. no, I'll be late. okay so what if I cut my running time to 25 minutes. five minutes pass. shit I'm not comfortable feeling rushed so let me go stretch now. stretching now. i should probably leave now if i want to make it in time. seriously!? this is in my head every freaking time! how do i get my mind to rest under these conditions?! My mind doesn't need anymore rantings than it already has. LOL!

I remember the days before Mathew when I used to wake up at 5am every morning to go to the gym. I even had time to have a hearty breakfast. And well NOW...I get to do that again in the comforts of my own home with Mathew nearby. Why didn't I think of this sooner?

Plus, I can workout on weekends and have normal lunch hours now! YAY :)

Before I go, let me leave you with this:
I see a Smart car in Florida at least once a day now! It looks like Americans are getting smart after the last 8 years of Dee Dee Dee!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009


forward progression
let go
leave the past behind
spread love
make things happen
think positive


Before I go, let me leave you with these quotes from Dr. Seuss (I'm in a Dr. Seuss kind of mood):

“I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!”

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”

“Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting. So... get on your way.”

Monday, February 2, 2009

The Scarlet Letter

“Life is short, have an affair”
This is an advertising tag line for an online dating service geared towards married people. This is no joke! I took notice when I saw the commercial spot during the Super Bowl stating “when divorce is not an option.” Are you kidding me? I had to watch it again to be sure this was for real! It is unimaginable to conceive a business like this exists…oh, but it does! This company (which I’m intentionally not mentioning) is ultimately condoning and advocating affairs. Yes, affairs have been going on for centuries. But does this mean we should start condoning it and perceiving it as acceptable behavior. Have we no shame? No morals? No family values? Have we lost our minds? Adultery should be shameful, not appealing. Adultery is a sin, not a virtue.

What has the world come to when businesses our profiting off of shamelessly breaking up marriages, destroying homes and families, afflicting pain on innocent children, disregarding the values of marriage, and condoning all of it at the same time??? What about the television affiliates who are allowing this on air? Oh boy...where are we going from here?

What message are we sending to the kids who are watching these commercials or who read the billboards? Do we really want to start spreading the message that marriage is not sacred and that affairs are acceptable? We already live in a society with a divorce rate of over 50%. We are already losing site of decent moral behavior. Should we allow businesses to not only profit off of our humanity, our sins, but also to dictate our morals and values? This is disgraceful!

I’m beyond appalled, I’m sickened and agitated. There are so many different levels of wrong here…I just cannot go on any further! I’m truly heartbroken!


Before I go, let me leave you with this:
I still have hope for our future, for our children. I still have faith. I still believe in ‘love conquers all’! All you need is love! Love is all you need!


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