New York, New York

I miss
the delectable food
street hot dogs
central park views
people watching
broadway
I miss you New York, New York!

I don't miss
the smoke filled air
defiled streets
polluted skin at the end of the day
noise so loud I couldn't hear myself think
Starbucks sightings everywhere

I still miss you New York, New York!

I miss the
bustling fun
city night lights
tourist sites

museums galore
street fairs
I miss you New York, New York!

I don't miss
bumping crowds
traffic hampers
summer heat

blistered feet

manure smells

I still miss you New York, New York!

I miss feeling lonely surrounded by millions.
I miss the friends, the laughter, and all the good times.

I miss you New York, New York!

It's time for a trip back to the big apple!

...and I promised Mathew I'd take him there.

Looks like I'll see you soon...New York, New York!

My Heart is Full

Another morning commute conversation with Mathew:

So, this intro part is just a snippet of what we talked about, so I can get to the awesome ending faster.

On our way to school this morning, after a dentist visit, I told him how proud I was of him. He didn't even flinch when they gave him the "sleeping medicine" (also known as, the dreadful novacain shot). I went on to tell him how much I loved him and how "I'm proud of you more than all the proud moms put together." Then I told him, that "I am one lucky mom to have you as my son!" He replies by saying, "I'm the luckiest boy for having the best mom in the world!"

So here's where my heart bounces with joy and is overflowing with so much love, that all I can tell him is "you've touched my heart! my heart is full of love!"

Here's the good part:

Then he says,

"My heart is full of kisses...and all the medium kisses are for you."

I was like,

"WHAT?! Who gets the big kisses?"

He explains quite cleverly,

"The big kisses come out in a big bubble filled with small kisses and they fly over to all the people I love, even in heaven!"

I understand completely (I mean, how can I argue with that?!). I say, "Oh, well of course! Okay, I'll take all the medium kisses I can get."

dude, this kid melts my heart and amazes me every day!

a proud mama i am is an understatement

"maybe the world rules itself"

My morning commute conversation with Mathew:

Out of the blue, Mathew asks me "who rules the world? ...is it god?"

I said "some people think it's god."

Then mathew says "maybe the world rules itself!"

Oh, how I loved to hear that. But I was also so surprised to hear such a profound realization come out of my 5-year old son, so I had to ask him, "where did you hear that from?"

He said, "Nowhere, I just thought of it."

...the conversation continued on about presidents, rulers, kings, and such.

I love having these conversations with him!

P.S. some of you may have heard of this story (on facebook), but I had to add to my blog, after all, this is part of my memory bank

dumping out the grain of sand in my shoe

Be master of your petty annoyances and conserve your energies for the big, worthwhile things. It isn't the mountain ahead that wears you out - it's the grain of sand in your shoe.

- Robert Service, a Canadian poet



...today, I am dumping out the grain of sand in my shoe.


This is a re-posted blog quote! i find that I'm in need of this reminder and resolution!

i tried music to let go of the sand in my shoe.
i tried writing to let go of the sand in my shoe.
I tried venting to let go of the sand in my shoe.
and it wasn't till this quote popped back into my head, that I remembered to just dump out the sand in my shoe!

note to self:
you are doing the best you can, where you are, with what you have,
knowing that you can't change certain things.
so fuck those petty annoyances
and focus your energy on all the worthwhile things in your life