Wednesday, August 11, 2010

One Year

One year ago today, I lost my big brother Robin.

there are days it still seems surreal
and days that are unbearable
there are better days of memories
and days of love in the air

there are days of wishing
and days of regrets about the past
there are greater days of faith
and days i smile with tears

living in this storm of emotions
these days of ups and downs
one thing is for certain
he resides in my heart everyday

I love you.
I miss you.
I wish you were here.
from my heart to your soul

‎...the only thing that gives me hope, is i know i'll see you again some day.
‎...i wish heaven had a phone so i could hear your voice again
...your absence has gone through me, like thread through a needle. everything I do is stitched with its color.
‎...say not in grief "he is no more" but live in thankfulness that he was
...God didn't take me away from you. He only took my hand and pull me to his side. My body is gone but my spirit will never die.
...when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart. for every time you think of me, I'm right here in your heart. is stronger than death
‎...where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.
...We may not understand why you left this earth so soon, or why you left before we were ready to say goodbye, but little by little, we begin to remember not just that you died, but that you lived. And that your life gave us memories too beautiful to forget.

I also wanted to share a poem by David Harkins...I took the liberty to change the she's to he's, the hers to his....

You can shed tears that he is gone, or you can smile because he has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back, or you can open your eyes and see all he's left. Your heart can be empty because you can't see him, or you can be full of the love you shared. You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday, or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday. You can remember him only that he is gone, or you can cherish his memory and let it live on. You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back. Or you can do what he'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and go on.


Holly Ruggiero, Southpaw said...

Beautiful, heartbreaking post. A year is such a short time. I hope your day is filled with wonderful memories that bring a smile to your face.

sol said...

thank you holly! ...smiles with tears :))

septembermom said...

Robin's smile must be the brightest in Heaven when he thinks of how his sister moves with such love in this world. Sending hugs to you...

sol said...

aww! thank you thank you kelly! much love back to you! xo


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