Just when you think enough time has gone by, a tiny little voice in the backseat kindly ushers you right back into the past.
Just when you think you're over it, your three year old innocently asks one question after another and you question yourself if you're over it.
Just when you think the bitterness is gone, your little guy chirps about his flight of happy memories and without wanting it, your bitterness comes back full swing.
And even though his memories trigger a sense of anger and resentment, in the end it makes me truly happy! I'm happy to see him revel in great memories. I'm happy to see him question inexplicable things. And It makes me so very happy to know my son can love (not only his mother) unconditionally.
If I I can teach him one thing in his life...I want it to be LOVE! The 'enduring, faithful, limitless, don't want to live without you kinda' LOVE. And if/when it falls apart, that he can still find the courage to LOVE again. I think I'm on the right track!
Before I go, let me leave you with these words attributed to Mother Theresa:
People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have,
and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis,
it is between you and God;
It was never between you and them anyway.
