it's a boy

an unsettling feeling came over me

my thoughts yanked in every direction

a pitiful feeling enters my gut

for innocence shouldn't be taken lightly

a smirk peeking through my lips

as i visualize the irony of it all

my skin turns green in envy

as i wonder how is this fair

laughter billows in the deep parts of my belly

cause it's just too darn funny

my shoulders sunken with sadness

as i foreshadow the worries of the future

peace flows through my veins

as divine justice is served

happiness exudes through my gait

as i remember all the joys in my life

the unsettling feeling that came over me

mixed with an array of emotions

came to an end with a smile

mathew now has another half-sibling

i have all that i can ever ask for, all i ever need